when you try your best but you don't succeed. when you get what you want, but not what you need. when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep. stuck in reverse. when the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something that you can't replace. when you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse?

-coldplay , fix you

water polo training was not bad. met Hazel, Jessica and damian today to hang out in starbucks and we studied a little Econs and F maths. i'm quite behind my revisions considering i had been so cramped up with volleyball and water polo training. have not touched my guitar for the longest time.


i miss a someone who will not take me more than a best friend. shrugs.

Haven't been blogging for a long time...

as in blogging about things with substance.

Guess I've been very tired. Not had much time. Like right now, I'm like a spitfire plane, typing furiously and just typing whatever I'm thinking. However honest, I don't really know.

My mind is like dead. I'm so tired, I can't study at night and in the late evening when I get home from school. I've never been this exhausted. I can't even wear my contact lenses! I go to school every day looking like a nerd. Err, yes I wear my contacts for myopia-purposes, but I also needa look less geekish and nerdy right?! Hah, yeahh, I have a vain side. -combs hair-HAHA. Gawd, I'm really losing it.

Anyways, besides tests and all the academics which I've been tied down to, I've also had training! Wonderful training.. err, Jon don't kill me?I'm really worried though about stuff happening in Canoeing. My thoughts and feelings on Canoeing stop there. I'm not going to disclose all that stuff. It's just, really depressing.

HA!

And so it was Clare's Confirmation yesterday.
Congrats Clare! :)
Granny also celebrated her birthday.
Yea, basically yesterday was filled with overeating.
School was so frickin long today. Mondays are like my longest days. I end at like 5.30pm and I usually end up staying till 6.30 PLUS cos'... I'm behind in my F maths! I keep missing F maths lessons, and so I'm held back even longer.
I went to school in my specs (no suprise there since I look horrible in them) and didn't do my hair (no suprise either, but it looks terrible I tell you).
My complexion seems to be improving, a bit. Compared to last time.
Sighs. LOOK AT WHAT JC HAS DONE TO ME! OMG!
Ew. I can't believe I'm even describing myself on my blog like that. Ew.
Sighs. My blog is so retarded sometimes.
Anyways. Chuxian called me up ytd to find out about how I'd been doing. It was great hearing from you :)
Thank you to Joshua Teng too for catching up with me via SMS today.
Life seems to be getting better.
I'm slowly catching up.
Slow but steady. Rock on, Michael, rock on.

HAHA. SHEESH THIS IS ABOUT THE MOST RETARDED POST EVER.
Hm. That's an interesting point.

Alright, and that shall be the blog post title for today. :)

Miss Singapore

i hope Joey Feng will win. Those guys from Sinagpore National Sports Team sure are lucky. if i were one of them, i hope i'll exort Joey. Shes the HOTTEST BABE lah.


Don't you agree with me?

ok, i'm not upset no more. figured there will be nothing much acommplished if i go emo all day. all thanks to Germaine for being there for me. Thanks, Bestie.

You are the Best.

give me a reason

new blog, new skin, new life.

i really cannot sleep.

The Scene Aesthetic is playing over and over again in my head.

I'm crying inside, because all I want is to be your friend.
Nothing more, nothing less.
What if you leave; what if I leave?
Time is being wasted.
Don't you understand how much you mean to me as a friend?
or maybe something more.
we used to have the same laughs and smiles.
And I just wish, I just wish you cared for me, old friend.
You've whisked yourself out of my life for so long, and it's only going to get longer.
And I can only sit here alone on my bed and wish it were one year ago when I knew you so well.
I don't understand why I still bother trying just for friendship